I just read my horoscope for today:

Your heart is full of hope today because you can see very tangible examples of how things are actually getting better, but you are afraid that you lost your opportunity to receive pleasure. Fortunately, the only thing that prevents you from thoroughly enjoying the day is your own attitude. Meditating for a while or taking a walk by yourself can be enough to quiet your fearful thoughts and allow you to appreciate your blessings.

very bizarre. I don't think my heart is full of hope today at all, but despair. but I do agree that I'm afraid I've lost my opportunity to receive pleasure (specifically, Friday Guy. I haven't heard from him since I got back and it's been a couple of days. I've both emailed and texted, so now I'm stuck waiting for him to contact me). my attitude is definitely a problem; has been for a while and I haven't been able to thoroughly kick it. I both meditated and took a walk by myself (well, with Katie) today, and I do feel a little better. able to appreciate my blessings? somewhat. I'm still unsteady.

anyway, what an interesting horoscope.