this year I'm going to celebrate Canada Day in the following ways:

- sleep in (done!)
- have a doughnut and coffee for breakfast (done!)
- do my taxes (ugh, I know, but it will feel good to finish. I'm getting mean letters from CRA!)
- get groceries
- take Katie for a long walk
- find some friends to hang out with
- watch fireworks

I began my Canada Day by making out with Friday Guy until 1am this morning, so it's already off to a fantastic start! we had our sushi dinner and it was delicious and we laughed a lot. then we went back to his place so he could change out of his workstuff and we just sat around and talked for hours. it was really fun, and when we kind of ran out of stuff to talk about, he suggested we cuddle. and so we did, and we talked and cuddled. it was without a doubt the best cuddle that I have had since the early part of when my ex and I started dating. we cuddled, we talked, we threatened to tickle each other, we tackled each other and lay in funny positions.... it was just really cute and comfortable and fun! eventually we started kissing and that was also fun!

last night he mentioned he doesn't want a girlfriend. I pointed out we hardly really know each other. I also asked him to not assume he knows what I want or what I am thinking. I also asked him to not try to push me away in the future because he thinks he knows what I want. I think I made my point. I am proud of the clarity I had in explaining myself last night! I am also really happy about the clarity I have in general about this, and about him.

he has one more year of his masters degree left and he works full time. he said last year at one point he didn't shower for four days because he figured it would save him some time. I realize we're in kind of a stupid position right now. but, we also have an entire summer to get to know each other and at least have fun before any big decisions are made. and I'm a one month wonder with boys anyway -- chances are we'll fizzle by summer's end and that's that. and if things don't fizzle by summer's end, well I guess we can deal with that then. not ideal, and I'm sure I'll get grumpy about this at some point, but last night was really amazing! I'm going to bask in the glow for now.

today is also my seventh wedding anniversary. or, well it would have been if we hadn't broken up three years ago. I have always found this to be a funny day. we picked Canada Day because we were in Scotland and it was nice to have a Canada connection (and we couldn't get into the registrar's office for solstice). it was always fun to have a big celebration on our day. and now it's not our day anymore and I still celebrate! it genuinely is a funny, funny day for me. funny as in haha. I have always loved Canada Day, and I'm glad I still do. we were in love that day and I see no reason to get mopey about it.