well things seem to be humming along nicely here.

eating well has been fun and beneficial. I forgot how much fun it can be to count calories. 680 calories in a Whopper? gross!! I can't remember why I'd looked that up, but in just one sandwich would be the number of calories I now eat for supper. anyway, today is day 4 and I feel fantastic. today at work someone gave me two doughnuts as a gift. I gave them away - whee! I wasn't even tempted.

this makes me feel strong. it makes me feel like I've taken back yet again a little more control over my life.

I talked to my mom tonight on the phone. it was nice. I love my parents so much! I'm hoping to meet up with them camping in August, and I am also planning to go visit them in late September. I haven't been to see them at their place in ages. they've been coming my direction a lot in the past year, which has been awesome! they were here in February, before that in December, and before that in late August. previous to that I'm not too sure -- that gets into where my memory is fuzzy. I sure wish they didn't live 8 hours away. I miss the days when it was only 3.5 hours and I could drive to their place after work on Fridays, and come back after supper on Sundays.

my roommate is moving out for September 1st, unless I can encourage (convince) him to move out sooner. I love the roommate, but hate his dog. well, I don't hate her, but she's a puppy. a very large, energetic puppy that has no manners. he doesn't exercise her and I've never seen him try to teach her anything. the day she chewed up my brand new cleats I told him I'd had it; find a solution to her chewing. he's chosen to leave. this frustrates me because he is actually an excellent roommate. plus, poor dog. she isn't dying from lack of exercise, but she clearly needs far more than she's getting. we discussed the exercise issue on three occasions, but he doesn't seem to believe me.

I'll definitely live alone for a while. I'm looking forward to having my space back, and to having my spare room be a spare room again. at least the rent he's paid me has covered the renovations I did to create the room. and, I also know I definitely don't want a dog bigger than Katie, or younger than her, or one that sheds, in my house again. lessons learned.

ooh, and when he moves out I'll have an excuse to have a party! ooooooh, okay now I'm really excited!

frisbee was cancelled tonight, which was good and bad. good because I had lots of stuff to do and I was feeling rushed, but bad because next week's game is off because most of our team will be out of town and missing two weeks in a row sucks. and, I also didn't really get much done tonight either so I didn't really benefit. ah well, I watched a couple of episodes of LA Ink, worked out with some dumbbells while I did that (which I might add is the first time I've ever done that!), worked on putting together a gift for the wedding shower I'm attending on Saturday, and then I talked to my mom as I mentioned. I wish I'd remembered to do a few more things while watching tv, though. that first hour was a total write off.

watching LA Ink got me thinking about my tattoo again. I did some googling and I think I've figured out the style of the book I want on my right wrist. maybe next week I'll take a lunch break and go down to the shop I've chosen.

I have an optometrist appointment tomorrow. I went last week because I was having problems with my eyes. I was waking up with mega-crusties. yup, infection! I've been on antibiotic drops for a week. the doctor was super nice and really glad I'd gone in as soon as I did. if I'd left it longer it would have become a five month ordeal, not a (hopefully) three week thing. best part -- the appointment was free! I expected it to be like a normal checkup and have to pay $80.

I haven't meditated this week so I'd better get on that and head to bed. I've been woken up the past two nights by needy dogs (Katie puked at 4 a.m. two nights ago; last night Nora decided to cry incessantly at 5), but the meditation should help me get really relaxed before I snooze. considering how tired I've been, it's been taking me far too long to fall asleep.

the other night I was up late because I was reading all of the stuff I wrote starting back in October when I was first learning about mindfulness. it was good to remind myself of the lessons I was learning back then; I'd forgotten some of them. tonight I thought I'd finish this post with a nice quote, so I did the el google thing and I found one from John Kabat-Zinn. we read a lot of articles from him in my meditation class. and, turns out I came to a similar conclusion in one of my posts -- but I'm too tired to bother finding it. anyway, here goes:

You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.

(it's taken me 31 years to learn that lesson, and I'm still not sure I totally have it. I'm getting better, though, that's for sure.)